Thursday, August 5, 2010

August 4

I guess we must be getting on with life considering it's been three days since I posted.  A bunch of Mike's co-workers came over last night to stain our deck.  Some had been out on Monday to do the pressure washing and then brought reinforcements yesterday to do the actual staining.  The deck looks great and we are so grateful for the help.  Unfortunately, I may have appeared as less than that yesterday.  Over the last couple of days I've had a sore throat that has gotten progressively worse so I wasn't feeling too great yesterday.  Hopefully, Mike's co-workers don't think he has an antisocial wife or that I'm not grateful for everything they did - including provide food Monday and Wednesday!

I don't know if stress has finally caught up to me, if it's allergies, sinus infection or just a plain old cold, but I feel rather miserable.  Actually, bad enough to see the doctor this afternoon.  The biggest reason I don't want to just wait it out is that our vacation starts on Saturday.  The last thing I want is to be sick during vacation. 

In the meantime I have the typical packing, laundry, list making routine that happens before any vacation.  It's nice to just feel normal. 

Mike doesn't want to be seen as "the guy with cancer".  Besides, it's gone at this point.  I don't want to be seen as the woman married to the guy with cancer.  We aren't unaware that things can change, but for now we can try to live our lives like we did B.C. (before cancer), but with a little more patience and understanding that comes from going through such a life changing event.

Monday, August 2, 2010

Just another ordinary day

Mike went to work today.  This is the first time he will be at work for a full day in five weeks.  While he probably won't be able to do the actual job he was originally hired for, just because it's mostly physical, I think he needed to get back to work.  Actually, I think we all needed for him to go back to work.  I don't mean to say that I haven't been happy having him at home.  I have.  I love getting to see him in the middle of the day or spending family time together on a Tuesday just because we can.  But, I also know he needs to be active.  That's just who he is.  Hanging around doing a lot of nothing sounds like a great idea until you are actually forced to do it.
Mike will only work two days this week and then the following week we will take the family vacation we weren't sure was even going to happen.  After that will be the next doctor appointments and then who knows.  At this point, it doesn't actually matter what is going to happen three weeks from now.  It took me awhile to get to this point, but I think I'm finally here.  Live in the moment, it is what it is, blah blah blah :o)

We will have two more dinners delivered to us this week and then we have asked that they be stopped.  I have to say I will miss not having to worry about what to make for dinner.  It has never been one of my skills, considering I have difficulty making a meatloaf that doesn't have a consistency of either a loaf of bread or soup.  Not having to think about dinner the last few weeks definitely lowered my stress level (thank you again to everyone that kept us fed), but I also know we need to be more self-sufficient again if we're going to move on.  I guess next on that list is mowing the lawn...maybe after vacation.